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My journey dealing with secondary infertility in this crazy fertile world.

Tuesday, April 7, 2009

worst. mom. ever!

went to dinner with the family....my 3 year old was being his usual self which led to him falling straight back on his chair at the restaurant. he cried, i held him...all was fine. fast forward 4-5 hours where he starts vomiting in his sleep. i think possible food poisoning or stomach bug. it was ~different~ though, but i couldn't put my finger on it. next morning after some much needed sleep led to a little clarity...i REMEMBER the fall and realize he quite possibly has a concussion! awesome mom that i am didn't even put the two together. after a frantic call to the dr i am quite certain that he did in fact have a concussion, but thank GOD...he seems fine. we had to wake him every 2 hrs last night and will continue to watch him the next few weeks. all i could think about was that natasha richardson who died a couple of days after her fall. i really feel like the worst mom for almost missing this!

Monday, March 30, 2009

Wow....I suck at blogging!

Anyways.........it has been an interesting month, again! I think I last left off after having my gall bladder out. Which followed having triple hernia surgery. Which followed my c section. Yeah, 3 surgeries in 5 months. Good times. My poor baby is now 7 months old. Where does time go???? He is doing great, thank God! I, however, was back in the hospital last week with a blood clot from my last surgery. I feel like Nancy at thenewlifeofnancy.blogspot.com where everything seems to go wrong. I agree with her though. Give the problems to me-not my children. Wonderful Elaine w/ her beautiful baby boy wrote me a comment checking on me. She is so sweet and SHE is the one w/ the newborn and checking on me. I am so happy for her! Check out her blog at myprayershispromises.blogspot.com

Hugs to all cycling right now. I need to check up on my blogs and see where everyone is! Expect some comments from me soon!

Sunday, March 1, 2009

Done...hopefully for good!

Had my surgery and spent 3 days in the hospital. Longer than I even did with my c-sections! Feeling ok, very tired though. Hoping this is the end of a long battle of being in pain. 3 surgeries in 6 months has taken a toll on my body! Ready to start feeling better and enter the real world again!

Tuesday, February 24, 2009

Tomorrow is the day

So, having my gall bladder out tomorrow. Dreading it and nervous as Hell, but hopeful that I will be feeling better afterwards!!! Ugh!

Thursday, February 5, 2009

Guess What!

Sorry to disappoint you if you thought it would be good news. I have still been having serious pain even after my hernia surgery. They had me go in for an ultrasound of my gall bladder, and sure enough, I have a bunch of stones. So...I need my gall bladder out. I know that surgery is not that big of a deal. BUT...it is my allergy of anesthesia that throws a curve. They are going to discuss my options with me this week. When will I feel better and be able to enjoy my kids? I feel so bad for Carson. I have been sick almost his whole 5 months of existence. I am not asking for a pity party. I am just so frustrated and verging on depression.

Monday, January 19, 2009

Still Recovering

It has been 2 weeks since my hernia surgery and I am still recovering. Let me just say that it is quite difficult not being able to lift your children when they are as young as mine. So...there have been people "helping me" almost everyday and I am getting tired of always having visitors. I do appreciate the help but look forward to being "normal" again. Go Steelers!

Saturday, January 10, 2009


Did that catch your attention? It has been the week from hell! Although I would never trade my baby, I must say that it was my pregnancy that gave me these 3 holes in my abdomen. Surgery was pretty bad and I have a nasty vertical scar to prove it. Had a hard time coming out of anesthesia which bought me a longer stay at the hospital. Then had a brief trip back to the ER due to an allergic reaction to one of my various meds! Now I have a rash and can't feel my lips, and I am unable to take my pain killers or antibiotic since they aren't sure WHAT I am having the reaction to. Just gets better and better. Surgery was Monday. Can't believe it is only Saturday. LONGEST WEEK EVER! This is way worse than a c section (of which I had 2), and at least with that you get a baby. I hope I can feel my lips tomorrow...