My journey dealing with secondary infertility in this crazy fertile world.

Saturday, August 23, 2008


well, sorry i haven't written. thank you so much for your wishes and prayers. carson was born on monday morning at 9:12 am. i will post pics when my husband can help me. after a few hours they realized he was struggling to breathe. the day got worse and worse. after entering the nicu, they kept giving me updates (while i was an emotional wreck for only seeing him a few minutes). after 5 hours, they decided to transfer him via ambulance to our children's hospital about 45 minutes away. it was such a horrible an emotional experience. meanwhile, i had to stay at my hospital to recover from my c section. they let me out early (on wednesday) and we went right to the hospital. we have been traveling back and forth several times a day to see him. we live an hour away so it is a lot of travel time. we also have a 2 year old that we are desperately trying to not leave out. he is not allowed to see his new brother since he is in the nicu, so doesn't quite understand what is going on. the baby is doing better. i have heard so many different diagnosis, but a common one is that he has pneumonia. he has been getting antibiotics twice a day. they even had an iv in his head! it is horrible to see your newborn with so many tubes and monitors. i will continue to update as i have time, but please continue to keep us in your prayers. we need them more than ever! i am so thankful for the nicu nurses. i always read the blog of "searching" and now i see how important and special your job is! people are really thankful for you!

Monday, August 18, 2008

Off to the hospital...

Well it is 5 am on Monday morning. The big BIRTHDAY. No, not mine. I have waited 39 weeks and 3 days in addition to all the cycles of TTC. Wish me luck and please keep us in your prayers. I will update as soon as I have access to a computer, but unfortunately that may not be till I am home!

Friday, August 15, 2008

3 More Days!!!

Not much to report b/c I am getting so anxious and I am trying not to dwell on it. My c-section is scheduled for this Monday the 18th. I have been tired and obsessed with cleaning. I hope to report good news soon upon my return from the hospital next week. Please keep us in your thoughts and prayers! Thanks everyone!

Thursday, August 7, 2008


I haven't been posting much b/c I feel like I am just waiting. A quick update...I was BACK in the ER for a 3rd time on Monday. It was for breathing problems and chest pains. They thought it was asthma but couldn't rule out a blood clot so they had to do a CT scan w/ iodine. I was hysterical. You are talking about someone here who won't even take tylenol for fears of hurting the baby and now I have to undergo radiation. It was a horrible and emotional day, but thank God I didn't have a blood clot! Today was my weekly check up. I am still not dilated and the baby hasn't even dropped. Dr. considered moving up my c section date to friday the 15th which would have thrilled me, but after the not so promising internal he decided to keep monday the 18th. needless to say, i was disappointed. i guess i will spend the next 10 days waiting and nesting. enjoying reading about all of you though!