My journey dealing with secondary infertility in this crazy fertile world.

Sunday, June 29, 2008

The Wedding is over!

I have been dreading the wedding that I was in yesterday ever since I found out I was pregnant in December. I didn't want to deal with being so pregnant (33 weeks!), hot, get the picture. After speaking w/ the bride, I realized I wasn't getting out of it. But, I made it. And it is a huge burdon lifted. Financially it was tough (shower, bachelorette party, gifts, dress, alterations, shoes, hair, etc.) since I am not currently working. It was also a lot of time and worrying about things, but now I can relax. Other than doctor appointments, my July calendar is basically open. I wasn't sure if I would be on bed rest or how I'd feel, so I am glad to have this month to just get ready and continue cleaning and organizing. Hope you are all having a fabulous weekend!

Thursday, June 26, 2008

Sigh of Relief...Part 2

Don't know why the previous post posted w/o anything, but anyway....

U/S went great today. Saw the baby boy of which we finally decided to call Carson. The technician even did a cool 3D scan for us which was so cool. I guess everything was measuring fine and the baby looked great.

Still in the crazy nesting phase and trying to get things "ready", but are you ever really ready?

Such good news going on with the blogs I read. Specifically a new BFP for my BBF (best blogging friend) who I couldn't be happier for. Go over and wish Elaine some good sticky vibes! Nancy, In Search of Morning Sickness, and Waiting in Line are all trucking along beautifully!

Yay! Life is good right now. :)

Sigh of Relief

Friday, June 20, 2008


I have turned into a lunatic. The nonsensical crying continues. My friends used to joke that I was like Chandler from "Friends" who said he was "dead inside" b/c he never cried. That seriously used to be me...I mean, it really took a lot to get me to shed a tear. Now...forget it!

Also, I am nesting like a crazy woman. Almost like I have become obsessed with cleaning. I am so tired, but always want to clean. I can't get to sleep till everything is in its place. Having a toddler and a messy husband does not help the matter.

Had my appointment yesterday, and I am happy to report that it was a 5 minute, uneventful appointment. I do have an u/s next week which I am really looking forward to. It will make me feel a lot better to just know that everything continues to be okay.

The wedding that I am in is this coming week, so I am glad that will be over and done with soon. I have really been dreading it. It will be a long few days.

So....with that I am off guessed it! CLEAN!

I will post after my u/s on Thursday with a report. Keep your fingers crossed for me. :)

Monday, June 16, 2008

2 months and counting!

Yesterday was June 15, and since my c section is scheduled for August 15, I am under the 2 month mark. Amazing! I am down to 2 week appointments. Tomorrow (Tues) would have been 2 weeks but we had scheduling issues, so I have one on Thurs. Although I feel movement, I still love my appointments. Don't ask me why...they seem pretty pointless and last all of 5 minutes, but it is still comforting. I am happy for the uneventful appointments b/c it makes me feel all is well.

The doctors said my eye issue was stress related. Go figure! Actually, I am a bridesmaid in a wedding next Saturday and that is causing me a lot of stress. The reasons sound stupid but between being huge, having to spend a ton of money that I could be using on more important things, and the fear of being so busy and tired that day have made it a giant stressor. I will be glad when it is over. And then it will almost be July....GASP! I feel like there is so much to do and so little time!

I hope everyone has a great Monday and week! I will post more after the appt on Thurs. TTFN!

Tuesday, June 10, 2008

What is wrong with me? I can't stop crying. Seriously. My husband and I went to the mall tonight, which is something I rarely do. I think I cried 3 times. The main cry (and an example of how stupid I am being) was when I ordered a hot fudge sundae at dairy queen. after my order was finished, the girl told me they were out of hot fudge and was chocolate okay. I asked if it was hot and she said tears came and I didn't want the sundae anymore. No husband ate it.

Part of my problem is that I have something going on with my eye. I don't know if it is an infection or what but it is bothering my 24/7. I went to my PCP today and they weren't sure what was wrong. I am going to attempt to go to an eye doctor tomorrow. The PCP suggested maybe stress and fatigue were bothering my eye, but I KNOW it is something more.

30 weeks tomorrow. Woo Hoo! Feels good to enter the 30's. Wish I felt that way on my birthday last year, lol!

On an end note...congrats to Farah and her beautiful new baby boy!

Tuesday, June 3, 2008


I feel like I have been waiting for June forever. I am now 29 weeks and I just remember always thinking that June would be like entering the "safe zone." See, I have a few risks for preterm labor, but I am feeling more confident being near 30 weeks. Don't get me wrong...I will feel much better come 36 weeks!
I had an appt today and it went pretty well. I have a planned c section schedule for aug 15 so things feel more real w/ a date being picked. I am down to every 2 weeks for my appointments so that is exciting. And I talked the dr into letting me have another ultrasound later this month. woo hoo!
I am feeling the baby a lot more which is comforting. Also, I have been feeling exhausted. With that being said...I am off to attempt to sleep. Attempt being the key word!
Thanks for the continued well wishes. :)