My journey dealing with secondary infertility in this crazy fertile world.

Tuesday, December 30, 2008

Happy Baby-filled 2009

2008 was just great for me! I was pregnant most of the year and had baby Carson in August. It was a joy to ~celebrate~ Christmas this year instead of the worrying I did last year being that I was newly pregnant.

As 2009 approaches, I have new goals. I know that I am done having children so I want to focus on getting myself back in shape and taking better care of myself. Unfortunately, that begins with a double hernia surgery on January 5. A joyful bonus from my pregnancy!

It is thrilling that so many of my blogging buddies are currently pregnant, so I look forward to you all giving birth and experiencing motherhood. Some for the 1st time and others for the 2nd or 3rd. Those of you still TTC...I wish you lots of luck and sticky vibes this year. 2009 will be the year of the baby!!!

Thursday, December 25, 2008

What a difference a year makes!

Merry Christmas everyone! After reading someone's blog, they commented on how different what they wrote this year compares to last year. This prompted me to look back to my Christmas post of 2007! I had recently received my BFP, but was having some cramps and spotting. I now vividly remember that I was just "blah" on Christmas thinking that I would be having a miscarriage any day. I didn't "enjoy" the most wonderful time of the year...even though I had what I wanted most-a BFP!
This year I did enjoy Christmas! With my toddler and now 4 month old baby! I really don't know where the time goes!!! Makes me want to slow life down a bit. In fact...we did nothing today but enjoy our family. No driving around to see a hundred people feeling stressed. In fact, I took 2 naps!!!!! I rarely get even 1! Then I read that a fellow blogger passed away (Lemondrops) and I was terribly saddened by this. Affirms my wanting to slow life down philosophy! She also had 2 beautiful little boys. My heart aches for her family. I lost my Dad around this time several years ago!
As I said at the close of my post last year...I hope the next year is full of babies all around. I am excited that ~many~ of the blogs I read include several pregnant women. A few of whom are nearing the end of that LONG 9 month journey. Ironic part is, although you want to speed up those 9 months, once the baby is born-you want time to stand still! Happy Holidays all!

Sunday, December 14, 2008

A year ago!

WOW! Where has time gone? It was a year ago today that I found out I was pregnant with my precious little Carson. I can hardly believe I am sitting here typing as an almost 4 month old baby boy is sleeping. It honestly feels like a month ago...not a year! I feel so blessed again this christmas holiday. Last year I was so blessed to find myself pregnant and was wishing and hoping all would be ok. For those of you that are pregnant, may you have a wonderful christmas preparing for your babies. Those with new babies I am sure will enjoy their first christmas through the eyes' of their children. And, those of you still TTC....I truly hope for you that this christmas or even 2009 brings you the one "gift" that you really want. Happy holidays to all!

Wednesday, December 3, 2008


By the way, I have removed a chunk of blogs from my "favorite blogs" sidebar. That is b/c I am now a follower of those blogs and get a reminder when they post something new. Just in case you were wondering!

Amazing Giveaway from a great blogger!

Go to this blog and not only will you find an amazing new blog to add to your list, but she has outdone herself with a fantastic Christmas giveaway for her 100th post!

Tuesday, December 2, 2008

Ahhhh.... is 9 o'clock and both boys are actually sleeping. We have just recently moved Carson to his crib which is in the same room as Cooper. Carson is now 3 months old and he will ~usually~ do a stretch from 8pm-2 am. Then he eats and sleeps till about 6. My biggest fear is that he will wake up his brother who won't be able to go back to sleep. This is the third night and it is going ok...not great, but ok!

Since Carson was in the NICU at birth, he never latched on for breastfeeding. For 3 months my life consisted of pumping every time he ate so that he could have breastmilk in a bottle. It made for a lot of stress. So, I let my milk dry up. Then this whole melamine thing came out. I was not a happy camper to say the least, and thought of attempting relactation, but decided against. I swear it is always something!

I am having hernia surgery in January from a double hernia that was an added bonus from my pregnancy. Woo hoo! Not excited about that it all. I already had 2 c-sections, and now I am having a 3rd abdominal surgery. Ugh!

Just realized it sounded like I was complaining a lot. is pretty good. I count my blessings everyday. Even though I still believe being a stay at home is super hard, I am happy to spend the time with my beautiful boys. I am really looking forward to Christmas. Now...if I can just get at least one gift bought, I will be happier!