My journey dealing with secondary infertility in this crazy fertile world.

Wednesday, November 28, 2007


Happy Over the Hump Day!

I haven't written in awhile as there has not been too much "news" on the TTC front. I am currently on cycle day 13 and definitely believe ovulation is in my near furture. Of course, I won't be seeing my husband til Sunday. Sooooo......I guess I will just look forward to my appt. on Dec. 11 to see where I go from here.

I am actually getting quite excited for Christmas. Unfortunately, I do not have one decoration currently up although it has been on my "to do" list since Thanksgiving. My days have been busy, but it seems like nothing ever gets done.

I have still been keeping up on the blogs I read. Thanks for those of you that read mine and especially for the encouraging comments. :)

I will try to be ~better~ about writing, but something exciting has to happen first.


Wednesday, November 21, 2007


I feel as though I rant, rave, and vent a lot on my blog about things that "annoy" me. (for lack of a better word.) In reality though, I really do have a lot to be thankful for. I know I shouldn't just count my blessings b/c of tomorrow's holiday, but of course it definitely helps.

Sometimes in the midst of all my ~fertility~ issues, things happen that make me feel so blessed. I am truly thankful for so many things in my life. I am also thankful for this blog and the people that it has connected me with. It is nice to have interaction with others that understand.

I wish you all a very Happy Thanksgiving.

Monday, November 19, 2007

Goodbye Chlomid

Well, I called the doctor today as I always do when AF arrives so I can refill my prescription. Today, the nurse said the dr. would want to see me this cycle which is always thrilling for me. I always hope he has some magical answers or a special pill that I can take and ...poof!....pregnant! He never does! Anyway, the nurse ~implied~ that this would be my last month on the fertility drug and we would discuss what to do next.

I have mixed feelings about this. I am glad to get off the drug, don't get me wrong BUT...what if I don't ovulate. I am glad to move on to something else...BUT what? A different drug? An IUI? I am going to try REALLY HARD to not obsess about this appointment til it comes on Dec. 11.

For now, I am going to focus on this cycle and hope for a miracle BFP for my Christmas present!

Saturday, November 17, 2007


Blah! Pretty much how I feel. Not really even in the mood to blog, but hoping that my ~ranting~ on here will help me to not take everything out on my husband.

First of all, period is here. Not that I didn't expect it, but still depressing each time another month goes by unsuccessful.

Secondly, Hurt my back at work. Badly. Lifting a child. Lots of pain. Enough said.

Those are the 2 main complaints, but it really just seems like everything is just blah right now. Everything else is just little so I am just trying to let it all go and try to enjoy this wonderful holiday season that I usually love.

I need to remind myself to be thankful for all the blessings that I do have!!!!

So tired due to the pain medicine and have to get up super early tomorrow to play bells at church. Question: When do I get to sleep in? Answer: Not any time soon.

Night Night!

Friday, November 9, 2007

4 Things About Me....

I have been tagged by Elaine at to do this and it sounds like fun!

Four jobs I have had in my life: (obviously I am not too diverse in this category!)
1. Teacher
2. Day Care Provider
3. Substitute Teacher
4. Student

Four Movies I have watched more than once:
1. Wizard of Oz (I'm obsessed!)
2. When Harry Met Sally
3. Beaches (When I need a good cry)
4. Wedding Crashers (When I need a good laugh)

Four TV shows that I watch faithfully:
1. Gray's Anatomy
2. American Idol
3. Dancing With the Stars
4. Oprah (Well, I tivo her everyday and decide if it is a topic I am interested in)

Four Places I have vacationed:
1. Hawaii (cruise to all the islands)
2. Disney World (over a dozen times...LOVE IT!)
3. Atlantis Resort in the Bahamas
4. Niagra Falls

Four of my favorite foods:
1. Chips and Salsa (but I love all Mexican food)
2. Broccoli Cheddar Soup from Panera
3. California Roll sushi (love Japanese and Chinese food too!)
4. Greek salad

Four places I would rather be right now:
1. In my bathroom viewing a BFP (lol!)
2. cashing in a winning lottery ticket
3. on an amazing stress free vacation
4. out with a bunch of old friends

Four things I am looking forward to this year:
1. Getting off of my fertility drug (and moving on to something else!)
2. Christmas :)
3. Getting pregnant (hey, a girl can dream)
4. the birth of my best friend's baby (her last one was 3 months premature)

Four hobbies I have:
1. Scrapbooking
2. Singing and playing bells in church choir
3. Selling Tastefully Simple products
4. Blogging and reading blogs

Tag to anyone reading this, but it may just be Elaine. It was fun anyway!!!

Wednesday, November 7, 2007

All is calm...

I know I haven't written in awhile, but sadly it is b/c I have nothing to write about.

I was still a little upset that my last appt with my doc had me continuing on with the chlomid and nothing else. I am soooo ready to either add something or do something else like an iui. he wants me to officially wait a year. so, anyhow...i am pretty sure this month is a no go.

I am still over a week away from a visit from my least favorite aunt. (you know the one...starts with an F and ends with an O) DH and I most definitely missed our window. I know my most fertile days are days 12-15 as I usually ovulate between day 13-14. Well, my husband and I were on completely opposite schedules and were not able to BD those days. We even tried once at 2 am when he gets home and once at 7 am before I went to work, but honestly...we were just too tired.

I am a little disappointed as I feel as though we "wasted" a month. I keep reminding myself the usual.....just put it in God's hands. While I have a lot of faith...that is easier said than done. There are so many things in life that you can work towards and accomplish if you put your mind to it, but with infertility you truly do not have control no matter what.

So, for now I wait to try again in December. Not exactly the usual 2 ww. To boot...I think I have a UTI. ugh! Anyway, I continue to read and keep up with all of your blogs and wish baby dust on all of you.