My journey dealing with secondary infertility in this crazy fertile world.

Saturday, September 22, 2007

The final days are the hardest

Well, I believe that my period is due on Tuesday. I guess I could probably take a test, but I'd rather keep hope alive as long as possible before the dreaded BFN! I really do no think I am pregnant, but every once in awhile I think I imagine symptoms. When I was pregnant years ago with my son, I literally knew a week before my period was due because I had so many symptoms. People always say to me "every pregnancy is different." But....we all know how comforting those cliches are.

I have really kept myself busy, but I am trying to remind myself the "pros" if I am not pregant. Stupid things that will just help me not feel sad at another failed cycle. I read a really interesting post last week written by Her post was entitled secondary vs. primary infertility. I got me interested in her blog. She wrote an entry yesterday that really helps me to get this whole ttc thing in perspective. It was about how TTC is/was taking over her life and she was forgetting to enjoy the other important things in her life. How 2 weeks out of the month are lost to either sadness or craziness. Makes me want to try harder to not focus so much on this aspect of my life.

Well, I will keep you all posted. I write this as if there are tons of people reading this, but in reality I only know of one person who even looks at my blog. (Thanks Elaine!) At least it as a way for me to journal this experience and it truly helps me to get out some of the crazy emotions I go through.

TTFN! ta ta for now


Elaine said...

Hey girl! I am sending you all the positive vibes, baby dust, and prayers I can send you. I hope that you post with some +++ news this week! Also, I put a post on my page about you to send some traffic to your blog (not that mine has a lot of traffic, but...well, you know). If you keep posting, the bloggers will come to you. I promise!
Keep me posted and think happy, positive thoughts!

Amanda said...

I'm sending you blog-love and baby dust!